Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.

It all started at 3 o'clock this morning when I've started asking myself why did I wake up at such an odd time...
I kept telling myself it's because I had to wash my hair but once I've done that and it wass still very early... I couldn't really find a good answer.

But I know, if there was anyone here to see me now - I'd be very very embarrassed since I'm walking around naked - they wouldn't stop laughing for the rest of their life. I'm having some funny conversations in my head right now.

Talking to my dad about stuff like this is always wrong. All he can come up with is: " I told you not to kiss any boy - EVER!". LOL

I really think I should put some clothes on.... And when I open my underwear drawers - what do you know?!?!?! Red or pink?! Completely forgot about the washing machine malfunction that turned all my white underwear into pink underwear... I guess I'll just have to go for red. And then go shopping ASAP.
My eyes stopped on that New Look dress I've got this year as a birthday present for myself. Yeah, I'll go for it.



You know, it feels good to be superficial from time to time and just numb my feelings. :-)

The highlight of my morning was the fact that I couldn't open my front door so I had to use the window to get out of the house, while my cab driver was waiting outside, just staring at me. That's the cab that picks me up nearly every morning or in the middle of the night when I run out of gas or electric... so his only words were " - do I want to know?". I couldn't bring myself to tell him that my new house mate locked the door and I just couldn't open it. And as a nice house mate that I am, I didn't want to wake him up at 5:30 to ask him to open the stupid door.

30 Minutes later I was in my office and for some weird reason NO ONE was arguing, everyone was being nice and no one was bitching. That shocked me for the day.



Last night was just the opposite and I shouted at everyone and left the office more pissed off than ever.
I tried to put some make up on so my boss wouldn't notice the fact that I'm 5 minutes away from a breakdown, but that didn't help alot so I had to snap and get out of the restaurant before the stupid tears were coming down my face.

I'm in a good mood now.