In my world.

I was wrong! I was wrong to think that anyone has any power over me.
That anyone from outside can manipulate me, that I can manipulate anyone. I was wrong to think that it's normal to be moved by something that happens outside my world, that someone else's opinion can ruin everything I am, that "intense" means "good", that I'm a very weak person, that I'm the target and I'm responsible for everyone's reactions,that I can only get to myself through others, that the competition and to be a winner is important.

I was so wrong for so many years. I don't have someone else's thoughts in my mind, I don't have theories I read in some book, I have my own experience, only.

There's only me in my world and everyone else is in their world. We live in a world of worlds. So when someone's shouting at me, I'm not the one they're shouting at. They're shouting at that pawn in their world. The one they call Cristina.
My world is impossible to move or change from outside. In my world I decide who's coming in and who doesn't, what I'm doing and what I'm not doing, what's good and what's not good, what belongs to me and and what doesn't. From here I don't see anyone as pawns of my world, I see them as leaders of their own worlds. In my world there's no point of trying to get annoyed or to prove something, cause theres no one there to get annoyed with or to ask me to prove anything. We have different worlds and different directions. In the best case scenario we get close to each other if we need help or someone to talk to. And that's probably the kindest thing we'll ever know... Worlds that allow and help each other BE.

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