It's very hard to find people who will love you no matter what

NOTE TO SELF: 
<When you're hurt, disappointed or angry you don't care about the fact that "time will fix everything" and that in a thousand years you won't feel the same and you're definitely not interested in cliches and probably not even in the words said to make you feel better. 
You're just interested in how everythings gonna affect you. In how your brain is gonna work after this... Will it show in your eyes? 
Your mind is attacked by thoughts, suggestions, conclusions ... 
Your body is numb.
And you wait...

Hopefully there's someone out there, ready to show up and give you the solution to all your problems. For some reason you're just expecting to wake up in the morning and know what to do. 
You just want to heal your wounds, your ideas and your memories.
 This is when you want everyone else to know what's best for you.
You live, you breathe, you smoke, you actually seem ok.
But the war is in your head. And you have to wake up and sort yourself out. You have to get better.>>


Cristinnne.